I have thought about creating a Vision Board for years, but for some reason I have never done it until last night. I thought it was interesting and could see that it might be inspiring, but I thought it would feel like making the collages of things I liked in college that I use to hang in my dorm room. Like back then, I sat down with a poster board, magazines, scissors and rubber cement, but the experience was completely different!
After researching several websites and blogs, I put on relaxing music, sat down on my cushion with my materials in front of me on the floor and sat for a while meditating on what I want my future to look like. My youngest son walked in on this scene and told me I was “so yoga and not normal”, but I’m sure he meant that in the kindest of ways.
I read that there are different types of boards you can create based on your clarity of intentions. If you know exactly what you want, you can find pictures and words of the exact car, trips, job, husband/wife or house you want. I am pretty open to the universe and like to be surprised, so I made a board that was more theme based around my hopes and dreams.
So I kept that music playing to help me relax and focus and started going through a big stack of magazines, ripping out all the pages that spoke to me in any way. I placed a picture of myself in the center of the board. Then I started cutting out the words and pictures from the ripped out pages and only kept the ones that were positive and future based. This seemed really important. This board is about where I’m going, not where I’ve been.
To be honest, when I sat down to do this I was feeling a little anxious and lost about some things that are going on in my life. I felt like isolating and not talking to anyone, feeling like no one would understand me. Then strangely, I kept thinking about a new friend of mine while I was working and I decided to text her. Turns out a vision board that she made was the impetus for her dream job and a big move. All the proof I needed that the universe wants me to create this board!
As I continued to cut and paste, I thought of someone else. It’s someone I feel misunderstood by and that I cannot be as real and vulnerable as I want to be with. Someone I can’t get through to. I have been being careful with what I’ve said to them lately out of fear of saying too much. It has felt like a game that I didn’t want to play. So I texted them. I know it sounds crazy, but cutting and pasting pictures and words of what I want my future to look like made me feel empowered to be completely raw and honest with this person. I don’t think it will change any outcomes, but I felt so much better after feeling strong enough to speak my truth. It felt like it freed up a huge space in me and now I’m ready to fill it with my dreams.
This morning I woke up and saw my board staring at me. It makes me feel more excited about my future and living a life of hope and joy. I think this will be my first of many dream boards. I have always said that all I need is a little hope and something to look forward. When those two things are looking at me in living color each day, like a string around my finger, I’ll be reminded that life is meant to live and not fear.